Scared Are I

January 18, 2016

It is MRI eve. I’ve eaten my last meal (though, were I so inclined, I could get up and eat in the middle of the night, as long as I’m done snacking by 3:00am… six hours before I’m to be slid into the tube–my first-ever MRI.

Wee bit apprehensive. I am mildly claustrophobic, though my claustrophobia is largely anecdotal; it’s not really been tested in any official way. The idea of being enclosed freaks me out… so I’ve avoided being enclosed. Problem solved.

Until tomorrow. Tomorrow I go into the narrow, noisy tube of terror and we shall see if I can deal.

I decided, way too late in the day, that I wanted to get myself some valium. The doctor had suggested I take a tablet before the test if I thought I might be at all uneasy about the whole thing, but I’d opted not to follow through, thinking, ah, I can handle this. Tonight I had second thoughts. Spent a fair chunk of this evening on the phone with Kaiser trying to get a prescription for a single dose, but it just wasn’t to be. Instead, I got tangled up in bureaucratic complications and while all the advise nurses understood fully my objective, and reason for same, they couldn’t scare up a doctor to prescribe a single, solitary valium. I can hardly believe this… I mean I’m going to be in a hospital crawling with doctors and full of pills. And nobody can give me a stupid little sedative?

With a bit of desperation, I tried to track down my buddy X (not her real initial) who has all manner of drugs, but she’s not responding to emails, texts or FB messages. Sure she’da had a pharma-suitable solution. (Wonder if I made that up…)

Jim says it’ll be no big. Lorilyn says think cozy, not claustrophobic.

Okay, then. Not scared-R-I.



2 Responses to “Scared Are I”

  1. blk4609 Says:

    You’ll be fine. Be sure to ask for ear protection; it really is noisy.

  2. Ellie Johnson Says:

    Loved your new word – pharma-suitable. Good for you for putting your own twist on this. Will like to hear how it was for you.

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